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Thursday, 27 September 2012

A Symphony of Sorrow - Chapter 3



Chapter 3 - All the beauty in the world


The sky during sunrise was breathtaking; a beautiful red colour occupying everything in his line of vision, echoing a subtle tranquility since the dawn of man.  Many have tried to reproduce this natural beauty but their efforts have failed in comparison.  Alex needed to see this every day as it represented the closest thing to heaven that his mind could comprehend; providing him with a distraction from the pain inside.  The air is cold but it does not bother him as the warmth from his beating heart fires his soul.  Alex loves this moment and he could spend an eternity embracing it all.  The birds are singing from the trees, the grass is soft beneath his feet and the gentle breath of the wind glides over his skin moving the hairs on his arms, the sensation electric.  Within the walls of his strong chest, his heart is racing and the love he feels, infinite.  Alex drops to his knees, tears streaming down his face, his heart breaking; as sometimes all the beauty that the world holds can be overwhelming.  The sun climbs higher and higher and Alexs teary eyes are fixated.  Alex places his hands over his face and cries; he cannot stop himself as each ray of sunlight cascades downwards from the heavens encircling him in such a beautiful peace.  Alex looks down at his watch to check the time, his watch reads 5.45am and he realizes that he must get to work or he’ll be late.  At the same time Susan awakens from a sleep, she is crying and doesn’t know why.  She glances at her alarm clock and it reads 5.45am.  Susan sits upright in her bed and sobs her heart out, her body shaking, full of emotion and overwhelmed by some mysterious force.  Alex is walking towards his Van whilst reaching into his pocket for his keys when he suddenly feels an ache in his heart forcing him to grab his chest, he has never felt anything like it and then he turns away from his van in the direction of Susan’s house as if drawn by a powerful magnet and he can feel her pain; he doesn’t know how or why, but he can.  Susan turns her head towards her bedroom window, quickly jumps out of bed and then rushes to it opening it frantically, turning her head towards the hill on which Alex stands.  Susan touches her chest and her heart does not feel like her own, the rhythm stronger, the beating deeper and she could swear that she could feel him.  The cold air blows through her window covering her soft skin in a gentle frost and she feels nothing, only the beating of his strong heart.  Alex cannot move; he is nearly six miles from Susan’s house but he feels like she is standing before him; he reaches out towards her and cups his hand as if he were touching the soft skin on her face, his heart beats faster and Susan can feel it.  Susan closes her eyes and can feel the gentle touch of Alex’s hand on her face, she feels his thumb wiping away the tears from her eyes and she smiles.  Alex smiles and then slowly turns and then walks away, gets into his van and then drives towards his work.  Susan closes her window and then climbs back into bed, pulling the duvet over her shoulders and then places her head onto her pillow and feels content.  As she drifts off, she imagines how it would feel to lie next to the man she loves and feel his warmth against her skin.  Susan for the first time in a long time feels safe and although she cannot reach out and touch Alex; his presence can be felt all around her.  Later that morning when Susan awoke from her sleep, she felt different.  Her daily routines which she has performed like clockwork may as well have been new and unique.  Alex felt the same; he found himself approaching his working day with an unusual enthusiasm and everyone knew it.  Every delivery was executed with a smile and where he usually found himself constantly looking at the amount of deliveries he had remaining, on this day, he never checked once.  It was a beautiful day and both Alex and Susan felt as if the air was purer than normal, a cup of tea tasted heavenly and that life in general was on the up.  Susan sat in her garden wondering if what happened this morning was real or some figment of her imagination.  Are there forces of nature surrounding us that we don’t understand and can the incredible powers of the universe give us a nudge towards our soul mate, the one who we were supposed to be with?  Susan watched as a little Robin flew past and then landed in her flower bed where she grew her Roses.  Susan smiled as she watched the little bird looking for worms amongst the earth, its spindly legs walking gently across the surface so not to disturb the worms underneath.  The Robin turned and looked right at her and then took off in flight towards her, circling overhead and then landed on her left arm.  Susan gasped with surprise and then said ’what do you want little one?’  The Robin started to whistle a beautiful tune to her and Susan started to giggle.  In all her years, no wild bird other than pigeons, had ever even come close to her, never mind landing on her and she wondered once more, what is happening to me?  Susan’s heart was leaping with joy and she felt truly happy.  Aimee appeared at the patio doors and said ’mummy, what is that bird doing on your arm?’  Susan replied giggling ’I really don’t know honey, but it’s cute isn’t it’  Aimee stepped out onto the patio and then sat right up against her mum, her bright little eyes amazed by their new little friend.  The Robin chirped at Susan and Aimee and then flew off round the side of the house towards the driveway with Aimee running behind it screaming ’come back, come back.’  Susan laughed and then she could hear Aimee shouting ’mummy, mummy, the man’s at the door!’  Susan’s heart started to beat fast, her breathing changed and she slowly started to rise to her feet, time seemingly slowing in pace as she turned towards the house and then slowly walking through the patio doors, journeying into the depths of her home to reach the front door.  As Susan turned the corner out of her living room, she could feel a warmth coming from the door, behind it stood her man in black, his eyes piercing deep into her soul sending lightning bolts deep into her heart and she could feel her legs beneath her going weak at the knees.  Susan opened her door and looked straight at Alex; time seemed to stand still while the two gazed into each other’s eyes, the cars driving past behind him in slow motion while not one single word was spoken.  Alex gulped slowly, smiled and then said simply ’Hi!’  Susan nearly breathless replied ’Hi!’  Time seemed to stop once more and then Alex slowly reached out his right hand towards Susan; in it was his hand held scanner.  Susan did the same, her right hand extending out towards Alex, accepting his scanner into hers; when Alex’s right index finger gently stroked the inside of her hand and Susan gasped for air while a million nerve endings fired all at once sending her mind into another place.  Susan visualized a world full of pure love where Alex was by her side laughing in bed whilst sharing a joke, running his fingers through her hair, Aimee laughing on top of Alex’s shoulders and Susan giving birth to their child conceived together.  Alex experienced the same, his strong jaw tightening while the beautiful images ran through his mind.  Susan started to feel faint, clearly overwhelmed by the emotions coursing through her body and she felt afraid as her legs began to give way beneath her and then suddenly there was only the dark as if someone had draped a black cloth over her face.  When Susan started to come round, she felt great warmth and a floating sensation as her vision started to return, displaying the ceiling above her as she drifted through her home.  Susan slowly turned her head and there was Alex smiling down at her, ’welcome back’ he said.  Susan turned her head the opposite direction so that she could see down and the floor was moving beneath her and then she realized that she was being carried in the arms of Alex.  As the pair approached her sofa, Alex kneeled down and without effort, gently laid her down onto the sofa, supporting her head with a cushion.  Susan smiled and then said ’what happened?’  Alex in a soft tone said ’I think you fainted, are you ok?’  Susan reached up with her right hand and touched his face saying ’I am now!’  Alex smiled and then said ’I’m sorry that I entered your home without your permission, but I had to make sure that you were ok!’  Susan smiled and said ’you don’t need to apologise Alex, I’m glad you are here.’  Alex sat down on the floor beside her and then ran his fingers through his dark hair while Susan looked lovingly at him.  Alex felt at peace, a feeling he only usually felt while he watched the rising sun and then it hit him, hard; maybe heaven doesn’t need to be felt standing on a lonely hill top in the early hours of the morning, watching the sun rise above the mountains; perhaps his heaven was simply sitting on a hard floor, while the woman he loved lay behind him on her sofa, safe, protected and cared for.  Susan felt the same, an empty void in her life could be easily filled by the presence of a kind man who she met through an act of fate; a man whose very presence, made her feel that the outside world didn’t exist and that the world instead was contained within the eyes of the one she loves.

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